Saturday, June 26, 2010

Stuck in a rut

Hello ladies,

I have to be honest with you all. Always have been, why stop now? I don't want to waste precious time with details, but my heart is heavy at the moment. I'm no longer depressed, by God's grace alone, but I lack the motivation to take the next step in my life. It also doesn't help that I don't know what that next step is supposed to be. All the next steps just seem too big for me.

But they aren't too big for God. I love writing on here because it makes me think things through. Though no one seems to be reading it right now, at least I am...

I simply feel overwhelmed right now. My days keep slipping away before I have a chance to do anything with them. I just wish time would stop for just a few moments so I could catch up. It's like walking with those dear friends of mine who have very long legs... one of their steps it like three of mine, so unless I'm nearly jogging, I fall behind.

That's where I'm at right now. I've fallen behind. I'm trying, though, to remember that God doesn't want us to compare ourselves to those around us. But I also need to get moving. Time's a-wastin'!

So, all of this just to say, please pray for me. Pray that God would give me the strength I need to get up and get going!

Love you all!


  1. Sure have been wondering how you've been doing. I don't know why/how I've missed these last several updates on your blog... But I've seen them now. :)

    From one blogger to another, it's hard not to, but try not to judge whether people are reading your blog based on comments alone. You'd be amazed how many people are faithful readers, but not commenters. And I am as guilty as anyone on that! :)

    Are you feeling like time is fleeting because you are busy and have not spare time, or because you feel you are not doing enough with your time and the days are passing without much accomplishment? (Wasn't sure which you meant).

    Either way, I think of you often and know that I will lift you up as you sort out 'what's next' for you. :)


  2. Thank you so much Ruth. You mean so much to me!

    And my days are slipping away because I'm not doing enough with my time. A few weeks ago I had something to do every single day. It seems like whether I'm busy or not, I'm just not able to find work. It's just altogether very discouraging. But God is good, as I'll elaborate on a little in the next post. :)